Love.

Love is constantly being compared to a game. Two people play, neither knows the other's strategy, and one person always lasts longer than the other and wins. Sometimes you win because the other person is a loser. Sometimes you win because the other person gives in. In the best scenarios, you win because you're both too stubborn to give in and the other person dies. In my situation, I'm ready for a real game. No more practice rounds.

That's a lie. I'm not ready to be in love, but I wish I was. I've been single for almost 4 months, but I still can't seem  to let myself get over my last boyfriend. I can't do it. No, I WON'T do it. A part of me deep, deep inside-in the place that only God and I go-I still love that man. I know I shouldn't, but I do. Love isn't logical. You can't apply logic to it because love has no sense. The really stupid part is that we dated for 3 months and now we've been apart longer than we were together.

I want to fall in love for real because then that will prove to myself that I'm not some loser that is going to spend the rest of her life eating Ben & Jerry's every night while watching The Notebook or Titanic. I know what you're thinking- I'm pathetic. I'm 19 years old and I've already given up. What a loser. WRONG!

I refuse to give up. I have someone. He's very smart, loving, kind, gentle, and is always there for me no matter what. He's exactly what I need. Sometimes when I'm being really stupid or irrational or just plain mean,  he tells me so. He says " Abby! Are you seriously being serious right now?" I respond "Umm, yeah! Why shouldn't I be? This is ridiculous!" "No, you're being ridiculous. A year from now this won't even matter! I love you. Let me take this for you." Yeah. He teaches me the hard lessons, but that's part of what I love about him. That and he would do anything-literally, ANYTHING- for my ultimate good. <3

Oh so you want to know his name now? You wanna Facebook stalk him? You wanna interrogate him about his past, present, and future? His name is Christ. You can't Facebook stalk him, but you can Bible-book stalk him, there you'll find out everything you need to know about him. I did. Wanna know something else? He doesn't just love me. He loves you, too! He will be loving, kind, and gentle with you, but he'll teach you the hard lessons. He loves you and wants to be with you forever. Give up the search. The Lover of Your Soul is waiting with open arms.

No Christ, No Love. Know Christ, Know Love

If you're already taken, you know that the other person isn't perfect, that they let you down, you get angry with each other, you might even have doubts about how much love is really there. Give your love to Jesus. He won't let you down. EVER! If you're single, give your heart to Christ. He loves you and wants what's best for you, so he'll lead you to that "Special Someone" in his perfect timing. Just hang in there.